Thursday, July 19, 2007

Theories ..

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I know that during my whole life I’m going to try to find excuses for myself..
For everything I do and that I will do..
I want to get rid of the excuses to be able to make up the real reasons..
To think of them as if they were theories that I have created and that only I can understand.
Oh .. but everything that I do today is not different from what I have done before.
I’d convince the whole world, except myself, of everything that I'd call a theory.
I want to be able to explain to everybody what and how I feel.. but I seem to believe that all this time, everything I said is not more than simple meanless words!
If God would explain me these theories, I would be able to understand them.
But wait..
How would I believe him if God’s only a theory ?
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posted by Xana ♫ @ 2:18:00 AM 0 Comments

Wednesday, July 18, 2007

Empty Soul ...

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I feel like I'm an empty soul.. lost in life..without a destiny..without hope to fill up my heart.
Sometimes it seems that a light wants to show up from among these shadows but..
I don' have anymore strenght to hold myself up there, out of those shadows, and I end up letting that ray of light run throught my hands.
It's hard to live !
Crying everyday because I'm surrounded by snakes that crawl on the floor around me..
Surrounded by lies, unfairness and prejudice..
It's hard to be strong in this rotten world..
Having to face people that just want to destroy me for no reason.
My biggest wish was to be able to run away and never come back again..
Throw whatever it's left of me in an abyss.. and let my body get rotten down there!
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posted by Xana ♫ @ 3:57:00 AM 1 Comments