A simple Sunday
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Writing can almost be an "exorcism" of the things that torment our soul and that are difficult to us to put outside for a wide variety of reasons!
I have catalogued all the wrong things that I thought were the right for me.
Even when I think I reached everything that I aimed, something lacks!
It is not really lacking...
I know I am looking for something that I miss... I broom
I can not be totally happy when I'm always missing something... Something has to be missing!
I can not surrender to ignorance of thinking that I have done everything, because this can't be so simple!
All these words to reach one simple goal... One simple sentence...
I would love to close my eyes, let me fall back and know that behind me would be a trustworthy person to catch me...
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Some days are diamonds
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It sure feels good to sit on my couch and listen to the rain pouring outside and listen to the wind blow the trees and the windshimes hanging on my neightbours balconies making some noise.
I haven't felt such peace in a while.
I felt good.
I felt alive.
I had the feeling that life isn't as bad as we make it, even though it can be pretty harsh when it wants to show us the different paths!
Last night I had a dream!
I dreamt I was in party at a flower shop, late at night, with lots of people I haven't seen for years.
I dreamt we danced all night long.
I twirled and jumped!
I was giggling and smiling.. having the time of my life.
Than I woke up and felt light and happy as if my life was a bowl full of flowers of all sents.
For some people rainy days let them melancholic and irritated.
Not for me.
Some of them let me happy and thoughtful!
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Being a little bit in my own place...
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I miss things that are my own, I miss my places!
Those places that I have shared with so many but keep on being mine.
I miss that place where I usually sit thinking about a thing at a time!
I need to walk, listen to music, feel that thick sand passing through my fingers and making them hurt.
My sand's place...
I have got to make a list of my priorities...
Things I must really do!
.Listen to music
.Sleep
.Study for university
.Smoke a few cigarettes
.Cook my specialities
.Clean
.Think about the good things that I do
.Take pictures
.Watch television
.Organise a list of theatres
.Text a few people
.Bug my cousin on the phone
My priorities' list is still very empty.. If I feel like it I'll update it later.
I need to figure out the changes, I have always liked seeing the things changing. To understand what has really changed. To describe the change!
I know who I was. Yet I just need to figure out whom I am becoming and where I am going. Will I be able to stick with it?!
Peace,
Allie
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